So I had the talk with S tonight, and it went well. Yes I was nervous but I asked what I wanted to know, and I got the answers. And it wasn't even anything personal, and it wasn't awkward either. And it was good to catch up with him. And now I feel relieved, and free, and I know that we won't work out because we don't want the same things. I just hope these good feelings aren't just a high. I'm ready to move on. Life awaits me!