Tonight I might be meeting up with an old classmate from high school. Actually, I went to grade school with him too, but he didn't graduate with me. He's in town because his dad is undergoing kidney surgery. He's married, btw. We got in touch earlier this year via Facebook, and have talked a few times on the phone.
Part of me is nervous to see him and meet his wife. I don't want to feel like the third wheel, but at the same time, I am curious to see her. And he never really comes into town, so I should take advantage of his time here and catch up. Right?
But here's the thing. I have this big schtik about meeting people from high school. I refuse to go to my 10 year reunion, which is coming up in 2012. Yes, do the math. I was class of '02 baby! One of my good friends, one of them that I still talk with, was our class president, and has the job of planning that. Even knowing she's planning it, you couldn't pay me to go. I'm sure I'll hear all about it anyways.
Plus, I really don't see the point. You know that there will be the skinny cheerleader types turned fat, the dorky guy turned hott, and the jocks will still think they are the best at everything. There will be the people who brag about their $100,000+ a year jobs, show off their beautiful husbands/wives, and talk about their fabulous lives. And then there will be the people who are miserable, still single, and don't have a great life. Yup, that's what I envision a high school reunion to be. Could I be wrong? Sure. But I bet you, I'm at least 50% right on the money. Even on Facebook, it seems like most of my high school class is on there now- it's like the beginning of a virtual reunion. I've seen some people from h.s. who never used to talk or were in different social circles, who regularly comment and write on each others walls. It's mind boggling. I do have some "friends" from high school on there, but most of them are on limited profile, so they can't see everything like my status. Which is how I like it. I don't want them to know what I've been up to. It's none of their business.
I'm aware that most of my graduating class still lives here. But I still feel like they invade my territory when I see them out and about sometimes. For example, twice now when I've been out downtown, I've seen someone from high school. I know I can't avoid downtown. I've seen people at church before, or at the mall. The last thing I want to do is talk to them, so I usually just avoid them like the plague, unless I'm spotted. If they see me, I'll make polite small talk and then immediately call M and gossip. Haha, I'm so mature.
I'm completely opposite of my brother, who went to the same high school as I did. He looks forward to getting together with his h.s. friends, and can't understand why I avoid mine. The main reason is that I've changed since high school. I'm no longer the quiet, studious, goody too shoes, type of girl. For one thing, I'm definitely not studious anymore, and I am a lot more talkative. I mean, I freaking went to Paris last year with just a few friends. When my hairstylist heard about it from my mom, she was so surprised. I'm sure she told her daughter, who was in my class. But back to the topic. I feel like meeting those people from high school would just suck me back in time to when I was in high school. And that isn't what I want. I don't want to have to prove to them that I have changed. I don't want to overcompensate and be completely different. I just want to be myself. And with my closest friends (some of them are from high school, some from college), I can be that person.
Am I crazy to want to live in the present and not associate with high school people? Or should I stop being so immature, and give them a chance?