Saturday- Made homemade blueberry pancakes. Was going to go to a harvest festival but it was cold and rainy. Went and had tea at an old coworker's house, where I got to hold her 3 month baby and watch him fall asleep on my chest. It was cute. I gave her the rest of my homemade blueberry muffins too. Then came home, relaxed, and watched tv. Then called a boy and cleaned my room. It was very productive, and strangely enough reminded me of sophomore year of college when I choose to stay in while everyone else was out getting wasted and hang out with my bff Ashley and we'd just talk about stuff or listen to music or watch a movie in my room. It felt nice. I also ignored a text from B, asking me to come over on Sunday and spend the night. I tell ya, that boy is trouble. It felt good to ignore the text though. :)
Sunday- I didn't go to church. I didn't feel like it. I blew off Steve. He wanted to give me my birthday present and grab a cup of coffee (or hot chocolate) but I didn't feel like it, so I said I was busy. I turned off my cell phone all day. It was peaceful knowing that I couldn't be reached. I might consider doing this every Sunday. I actually got along with my mom this weekend. Went for a 6 mile bike ride by myself. I painted my nails pink and helped my brother beat levels on Indiana Jones for Wii by giving him cheat codes. I watched Drop Dead Diva and the VMAs. I cooked dinner--ravioli, and ate an oatmeal cinnamon chip cookie with a glass of milk. Divine.
All in all, it was definitely a lazy weekend.
How was your weekend?
I found this poem online this morning, and it pretty much sums up how I'm feeling--calm, introspective, and anti-social. Enjoy.
May you find serenity and tranquility in a world you may not always understand. May the pain you have known and the conflict you have experienced give you the strength to walk through life facing each new situation with courage and optimism. Always know that there are those whose love and understanding will always be there, even when you feel most alone. May you discover enough goodness in others to believe in a world of peace. May a kind word, a reassuring touch, and a warm smile be yours everyday of your life, and may you give these gifts as well as receive them. Remember the sunshine when the storm seems unending.
Teach love to those who hate, and let that love embrace you as you go out into the world. May the teachings of those you admire become part of you, so that you may call upon them. Remember those whose lives you have touched and whose have touched yours are always a part of you, even if the encounters were less than you would have wished. It is the content of the encounter that is
more important than the form.
May you not become too concerned with material matters, but instead place immeasurable value on the goodness in your heart. Find time each day to see beauty and love in the world around you. Realize that each person has limitless abilities, but each of us is different in our own way. What you feel you lack in the present may become one of your strengths in the future. May you see your future as one filled with promise and possibility. Learn to view everything as a worthwhile experience. May you find enough inner strength to determine your own worth by yourself, and not be dependent on another's judgment of your accomplishments.
May you always feel loved.