I have to let you go...

Things in the boy department have kind of tapered off lately, mostly due to my own decisions. Remember Alex? Well, a couple of weeks ago on a Friday, he called me at work. We chatted for a few minutes, and he apologized for not emailing me or calling me that week, due to work reasons. Which was fine with me, I was really busy that week anyways. We got to talking about weekend plans, and I for once, had nothing planned, nothing going on. So without thinking, I told him I wasn't going to do much, maybe go outside or go for a drive somewhere...that I had no plans. What do you think happened? He didn't miss a beat and volunteered to hang out with me. Heck, he even said he would drive, and to call him the next day.

After hanging up, I realized that I didn't even know him. I hadn't seen him in person since we met on the bus a month ago, and why would I drive in a car with him? Not a good idea. Plus, he's obviously older. So while talking to my bff about it, she made a good point--that he's gotta be looking for one thing, and that I should end it because I'm not comfortable with the whole idea of hanging out with him. Which I wasn't at all. I get myself into crazy situations like these all the time because I'm just too nice. *shakes head*


So, I figured I had two options. I could call him back at work and cancel that way. Or I could send him an e-mail. I chose the latter, because I was too chicken shit to call him back. I kept thinking, what if he shows up at my office? What if he gets angry? I have a wild imagination, what can I say? So I wrote him a very short but nice email saying that due to our age difference I didn't think it would be appropriate to hang out, but that he was a very nice person and I hope he meets some new people soon.

Of course he responded the next day and was very nice about it.

{My name},

I can understand you perfectly. I don't know how old you are vs mine, although I sincerely believe I'm older than you but I don't think it hurt to have a friend who is older than you, does it? Besides I am sure it hasn't developed to something serious. For me I don't even know whether you have boyfriend or not so I have not been thinking seriously about relationship but I know is possible if there is connection and other things work. For now I just consider you as a friend but I think you are ahead of me. Anyway, I think you are nice and like you but if that is how you feel I can understand you. This notwithstanding I wanted to meet you even if not for anything but just a friend.

If you change your mind, give me a call.

Thanks {insert my name here}.

I never replied to the e-mail, because I didn't want to lead him on. We are still friends on Facebook, which I guess I'll leave. It's not like we write on each other's walls or comment on each other's statuses or anything, so it's probably ok to keep him on there. I was going to delete him, but my bff said that would send him the message that I hate him, which I definitely don't. I just am not interested at all. I feel good about my decision to let him go...now I need to work on all the other ones. *sigh*

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Weekend Recap

Friday- I worked from home again, just because I could. Then, in the evening, my mom and I got into a fight. She basically said that I'm a bad influence on my 9-year-old brother because I say no to her, and I don't pick up things like she wants them, and I don't help my brother study. I told her she's the parent, not me, it's not my job to tutor him. I'm his sister. We argued for awhile until she said that "this just isn't working, you need to move out. You need a life." Um, I have one thanks. I asked her to wait until January, because that's when I can stop paying for my P.O.D. and look for a place to move. Of course she said no, and I basically left.

I went to my friend's house where we watched Hocus Pocus with M, and then we got addicted to watching this Ghost Hunters Live show on the Travel Channel where they were in some mental institute in West Virginia. It was lame and they never did find one, but we still watched it till 1am. I spent the night, and didn't even dream of ghosts.

Saturday- I slept till 10am, then ate lunch and watched My Life in Ruins with my friend. We played with her dog, and watched Casper the Friendly Ghost, and played trivia on demand. We finally went outside at like 5pm, took the dog for a short walk, and then I headed out. I went home, made up a costume (I was a little girl going to sleep--I wore my hair in pigtails, wore starry pjs, slippers, and held a stuffed teddy bear with me), and then headed downtown for a party, where I met up with many new and familiar faces. It was good times. After that I headed to another party closer to home, where I played darts and watched people play Rockband 2. I stayed out late, but it was a good night, considering last Monday I had no plans for Halloween whatsoever.

Sunday- I slept in, watched tv, ate cold pizza on the couch, played with the dog, watched some more tv, avoided my mother, attempted to go to church but failed, and then went to bed. Yeah, I pretty much did nothing yesterday but isn't that what Sundays are for?

Today I'm the only one in the office, it's mildly unsettling, but I've managed to take up most of the day doing mundane tasks.


How was your weekend? Did you dress up for Halloween?