I hate so much...today.

I just need to vent....

Things I hate:

1. My annoying officemate. She's always too hot or too cold. She opens the windows when I'm cold, she doesn't ever change the tape for the server, she's totally the "teacher's pet," and she takes two hour lunches like she deserves to.
   
2. I hate my mom. She knows exactly how to piss me off, especially when she says comments like "You sure don't look like you've lost weight," and "You should change, no guy is going to look at you in a t-shirt and shorts." Thanks mom, there goes my self-esteem. She made me cry last night. I hate her.
3. Floozy, my other officemate. She bought me a sundae at Ben & Jerry's, and then minutes later, decided to let me know how "redundant" my writing is, and what I should fix, even though SHE IS NOT MY BOSS!
4. I hate living at home. I resent that I have to take my 9-year-old brother to summer camp everyday while my other brother gets to sleep in because he was out too late the night before. I'm late everyday because of this but no one cares. FML.
   
5. My life. Clearly I'm unhappy today.

I wish I could embrace my inner petulant child and run away.

That Girl

We all have this friend. You know, the one that instigates things, that convinces you to get out of your pjs and go out, that makes you have one more shot when you don't think you can, that dares you to do something crazy, and that makes you feel alive. I have one of those friends from college, and I miss her. She was one of the reasons why I didn't graduate from college a semester early. I'm glad I didn't, because I had the best semester ever with her. She was the one who encouraged me to drink before staff meetings, to bitch about life over a glass of wine, and showed me that partying can be fun, no matter where we were. She encouraged me when I didn't know what I had to offer, and was always there for a good laugh.

Jen & I circa 2007 in NYC

I miss her not only because of her sarcasm, but also because here in D-town I don't have that type of friend. And man, sometimes I really wish I did. Especially when I feel old. I heart my circle of friends, don't get me wrong. But sometimes I wish I could be more crazy, without having to feel stupid or immature. I don't want to be the "boozer" of the group, forcing people to drink. I don't want to plan on getting wasted. I want it to come naturally. Maybe I'm looking to relive some parts of my college years, but I'm not entirely sure about that. I mean, I'm definitely responsible, and I know my limits, which unfortunately have changed dramatically in the past year or so. I used to be able to handle 4 drinks a night. Now I get through 2 and I'm done. Which isn't bad either, because that just saves me money because I don't have to buy a bunch of drinks. Anyways, the point is, I'm on the lookout for a drinking buddy...any takers?

TGIF

Plans for this weekend:

1. Get wasted/have fun tonight at a party.
2. Revise my cover letter & apply for a job or two or three
3. Go to jazz in the park on Sunday
4. Take the dog for a walk. She'll love me forever for it.

What are your plans?